lothinielflowermaiden | (no subject)

I'm giving up, I think. I don't have a chance of winning NaNo at this point. Tomorrow I'll be over two days behind, and be without my laptop for who knows how long. And, I'm going on vacation over Thanksgiving weekend, and I wanted to be ahead enough by then that I wouldn't need to worry about my word count. Especially if I don't have my laptop to be able to keep up at all.

And it really doesn't help that the only ideas I get anymore are for stories I want to read, not for stories I want to write. And then I get more depressed that I'll never be able to read them.

I might as well just admit that I don't have a chance and just quit now and save myself the embarrassment of trying and losing.

I almost wish I could do that with the rest of my life. The way things are going I'm never going to be anything but a failure.